Monday, May 2, 2011

Mysterious loss of attraction.

What do you do when you have affection and eroticism, but not attraction? Tonight I have a date with a very, very, very nice girl, an ex-girlfriend from out of town. Great body. When we were dating, she'd do anything sexually for me -- literally anything. Insane blowjobs, and if you've gleaned anything about my personality, that's central to my psyche. I mean, you asked, and she did it, absolutely no issues.

The problem is that I am just not attracted to her all that much any more. I just can't explain it. She's petite, gives loud slurpy bjs with just gallons of saliva everywhere -- i.e., perfect -- and was more than happy to have facials or swallow or whatever I want. One of the only two or three girls out of several dozen who have blown me who can get me off without any effort on my part (with most girls I end up finishing the job for them, with my hand, or at least helping them). Absolutely fine with me taking pictures or videos for my later viewing pleasure (I do that with most girlfriends; the coolest ones don't mind at all, the less cool ones can't get there).

But the attraction has waned so very much. I don't understand it. I am sure I will be expected to whip out a super hard bone tonight, but I dunno, we'll see what happens. I'm kind of nervous about it to tell you the truth. It doesn't have that crazy erotic bond any more that is so damned good.

Is it as simple as, your brain isn't interested when the challenge is gone? I mean she is a good friend, for no particular reason I don't want her as a lover these days, even though she's state-of-the-art sex-wise. I could spend hours and hours in her company, just not having sex. Anything like this ever happen, where attraction just fades for no definable reason?